bigger than this

Uncertainty and disappointment wash over me
A thing once clearly defined in my mind has slowly been ebbing away
Ebbing away until today it was completely swept clean
Left is an empty slate, no words, no signs, nothing to grasp onto
Faith is lost in what was true
True becomes false and I'm so sorry
It seems so cliche but what else is there to say
When doubts arise and feelings change

Emotions ran high and time was lacking
Sufficient only for hasty words and actions
No regrets you say, you meant every word
But still all the while I rested assured
Assured of a love that would be waiting for me
The foundation of which filled many of my dreams

This cancer called heartbreak spreads through my bones
Infecting my organs, I feel so alone
But I know, oh I know, that there is something bigger than this
A God who wants my full dependence
I'll lean on him, he'll support this sad body
I'll succumb to the weakness in which he'll prove himself perfectly
To you, oh Lord, do I commend this heart
Make me whole and offer your loving comfort

I don't understand but come what may
Just be it your will, by your side I'll stay
I cannot know what the future will bring
But until that time comes, your praises I'll sing