burning burning
cigarettes and souls
habits and temptations
tighten their hold
you think you know what i know
but your ill-guided assumptions don't even come close
breakdown into meltdown into a
puddle of lost hopes
i open my teeth to take the last dose
of insanity, don't blame it on me
i'm tired of the mediocrity
six feet under you stand above me with a shovel
i lay there smiling cause i've dug a tunnel
jack be nimble, jack be quick
jack's laces are tied, jack's tongue is thick
stuck in his throat, those lies he can't spit
caught in a bind, i don't give a shit

like the trees hold their leaves til the seasons change
so i'll hold you until you have to go away
don't fall far
i'll be right here
the wind will take you where it will
when you come back around i'll be here still

Everything seems so passe
The sun shined too bright today
So I made smokey clouds to fit my mood
Under stable skies unstable I stood
I'm not as young as I was yesterday
And tomorrow will come to steal today
Convenient shades, hips to sway
Life moves on, come what may
Grievous thought, some die too young
With words on their lips and life in their lungs
The angels will listen without a sound
To the sad stories and sad, sad songs
Seasons will come and seasons will go
To accomodate the rivers that continue to flow
By the waters edge there still we'll breathe
The breath of life that some day will cease
All good things must come to an end
But life only ends to begin again

So dance with me, dance while we're young
Move your feet we don't have long
Enlighten me with your words and touch
Give me somewhere to belong

I've lost count of all the ways
All the times you've let me down
You set me on a throne
Clothed me in purple
And took the jewels from my crown
My tiny motorcar tries in vain
And it can't fly me away
So I stay, I stay

You gave her my wings
So I'm stuck here on the ground
You sate your thirst with her
Candy tongue
I can't move, can't move
While you are moving on
How was the right made so very wrong

beginnings end

with crayola crayons of every color
i drew pretty pictures to give my mother
of horses blue and pastures so green
speckled with smiling flowers
time mocks us, laughing as it passes by
now i'm older and your heart sighs

you force your way up
i'll push my way down
we'll meet in the middle on some common ground
from where i stand it all seems so clear
all i need is to have you near

he said he wanted a new life, a new world
you and me both, i said, or perhaps some of the old
but what's past is past for a reason
it was a different time, a different season
time folds over, burying the past
under layers of beginnings that just didn't last

i could feel you like you lay next to me
see you like you filled my eyes
your taste lingered on my lips long after you left
and now the days go faster than they come
my time here is almost done

so good

Tonight I feel more than I should
If it didn't hurt so bad, it wouldn't have been so good
Days turned to weeks times 52
Our eyes sparkled for others but still I knew
Your heart completed the half of mine
You took with you when we said goodbye

Drunken phone calls professed a love
That was alive for me all because
There in another you began to see
Reminders of us, reminders of me
Sobering thought true love doesn't die
Channel to another, I hope I might

It was over before it had a chance to begin
I'll pretend I didn't know what could have been
When I see you again I'll try to smile
But my heart just wants to be broken a while
I don't believe time heals anything
Just ripens realizations and gives more time to bleed

a clearer picture

I can't see but I can feel and I know
That in my eyes isn't all there is to behold
This wanting mind burns to see
The veiled, the intangible, the mystery
That is love that is God
Wind commanding the sea
That is hate that is evil
The world all-consuming
Spoken words caught on the air
Setting worlds on fire
Or unloading a care
All things that I cannot see
But are as true and as real as the air that I breathe
Life flows free and unseen
Between you and me
Embrace the chance and opportunity
To see with your mind and feel with your soul
Because you can't see with your eyes
All there is to behold